OutCasting; Voice dysphoria

set this is our testing overtime for media for the public good producer of public radio's lgbt youth programs hi i'm brian mann out testing these pitches a tent on this edition of pastor ali talks about forces fire i'm a trans woman and for trans people we experience something called gender does for a historian a hard hard to explain what xavier assess says meaning not transgender woman and one day you wake up and you look in the mirror and you find yourself with the body of a man now after this initial shock has worn off i imagine just going through your life and having these things that you expect to be they're just not be there it's just i never quite fading feeling of prominence about your body and that's more last winter's for ios now it doesn't have to be about your body specifically there is social the story out which is about how you sort of appear is all whole person and in different

interactions and situations gender based mannerisms or example of us when you do things typical the gender you don't identify as it can also be about how people treat you and how you want people to think of you pronouns are good example of this stuff so generally does for a cause feelings of unease in distress because your brain isn't getting what expects one aspect of this for it that is often overlooked is the cost of oysters for ways to story is exactly what it sounds like it's essentially discomfort with the way that one's voice sounds and feeling like it doesn't represent who they are as a person for example i feel very does fork about my voice and initially didn't even want to do this episode my voice isn't actually speak is extremely mine town and doesn't convey much emotion at all at the moment i am talking in a way they have someone trained myself to which sounds a little bit more feminine although frankly i'm not really sure if it's if it's working this is what i sound like normal and i can't quite put into words

what it is that i don't like about this voice if i hurt somebody else with that voice or one than anything other but the fact is to me it sounds like someone else's voice not my own so i speak using air it as if it's strangers speaking through my mouth it's not that i don't like the stranger to stranger just simply isn't me and when i speak and people hear that stranger and said have made it just to feel bad it feels bad to not be understood and heard for who i am because of voices for him i want to avoid talking in general for example on the show because they don't represent the world with a stranger's voice i'm like sharon choir that i would be otherwise it had a lot of extra stress when it comes to finding a job because i generally am inclined i wanna find jobs where you don't have to talk to anybody for any circumstances which is not many of m y comes to friends and he will speak with friends a lot easier but in terms of meeting new people it's very hard because i just don't want to speak to

them because they don't want their first impression of me to be with a voice it isn't me for trans people it is possible to change on the voice i'm trying to do so it makes successful plenty people can and have done it for trans men it's a little easier because hormones help to deepen the voice but for trans woman it's basically all done through vocal training at the moment seeing a vocal coach to helmet with us she's working with me to jamie exercises for helping find my true voice on a sort of weird like you have to think about where in your mouth your voice resonating from its it's all crime cop dando feel like i really understand what i'm trying i hope that in time all beal does speak using my true voice instead of a stranger's been known to do that will help me significantly when it comes to genders story which will help get rid of that sense of unease and just generally make me a happier person thanks for listening to our past in overtime the future for not casting public radio's lgbt he's program outcast in overtime is a production of media for the public

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