AIDS Health inserts; 2 clips on AIDS patients

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high and walk up and down the sidewalk, you know, and this is like home. I do it because I do care about the human race and as a child I always wanted to be a missionary worker but I thought you had to have a lot of money to go overseas but I see that missionary work need to be done right here at all. I read to them, watch TV with them, I cook for them, wash their clothes, bathe them, take their temperature, blood pressure, go get their medicine, feed them and whatever need

to be done for them. One day she asked my mom what I liked with my favorite color, I was like, you did a lot kind of thing. And she painted blue, she was my favorite color, I'll buy herself and her and my mom and brother who lives in Richardson moved all my stuff over here, it didn't personalize it a whole bunch. She did everything, she did everything and she never acted like she got tired when I saw of it. You know, and what I see her do now, she's a whirlwind and never has a frown. I smile but when I'm hurting I stay inside because I don't feel like smiling and to keep from answering any questions I don't be bothered with. I have arranged 12 funerals for the people of the age. I feel hurt but I feel worse when there's no family there.

To look at the families that's going through all the tragic death, they can't live up to it and then here I am watching it and then the families don't even have nerve enough to call to ask me about their own son. So I said, well, the burden gets so heavy and heart sometimes. What I do to take care of myself is to, and especially time to myself, I will come inside close the doors and clean, or I'll clean, clean, clean. It definitely makes it less painful to just move, move, move. I'll go outside and cut the lawns, flowers, do anything and then I don't have to think. I've probably put on seven or ten pounds just in this past week.

For me, a meal was used to be peanut butter and jelly saying which. This morning she made me some great pancakes. They were so fluffy they were like that. You started to have to be what? Besides burnt flat. And these guys get sick, they just like a little innocent baby. All you do is keep them clean, full and happy, and that's the bottom line. And I don't know where I'd be, I really don't. She was like a god send. She's got that love to give. I don't know where, from where, God, she's got a lot of it. She's got it and she'll give it back in your turn. It helps me fight, helps me fight the disease. She's like, she's my friend, she's my mother, she's just, you know, my nurse when I need it.

She's everything to me, you know, and it's not just because she gave me a place to stay, but it's because of who she is, you know, I mean that, I really mean that, I love you. A.J. strength from her and she gives it. A.J. strength from her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it back to her and she gives it

You cry a lot when you when you're when you're told you have a year in a half to live you have all these plans for life I just change my plan I just change my plans I just changed my plans I just changed my plans I just changed my plans instead of having one range goals I now have. I enjoyed a day for what I can get out of it and go on and realized that no one walking on the face of the earth has a guarantee that

there's going to be a tomorrow. When I was first dying in Stark, I just I stayed in my apartment. I just didn't go out. I just went through with John and finally some of the AIDS groups in town. I did contact him for help and now it's only for buddy. Steve and I knew each other about five years ago as friends and had a lot of fun running around together. When he became a PWA, he asked if I would be his buddy. I remember him as being scared, anticipating how much life he would have left. And at that time Steve was just arc. He was not full blown AIDS. It wasn't until October of last year that he was diagnosed with PCP and frightened him

today. But it was also a turnaround for him in which he decided that he was going to live and live a quality life. Well I have my spiritual and I just take one day at a time and confront stuff at each day as it comes. I don't make any long-range plans or anything like that. When I was diagnosed I wanted at least to die with dignity but it seems that the hardest part is living with dignity. It's real good to know that you can be able to sit down and talk, share your experiences and you know our anger and all of that. Plus it gives us some place to go on a day that's not filled with very much because our days aren't. I've had friends that I've run around with ever since I moved to Dallas that would look at me and say or call and say well I would combine seeing the hospital but I want to remember you the way you were not the way you are and other people would

be afraid to even be in the same room with me. Sometimes I feel like I'm a lepper and that I can't go on living in normal life. It's too bad that people have to live on their fears and it angers me a great deal. It also hurts more than anything else. I'm a human being I can still function and do things. Let's go outside. My puppy was the best thing that I could bought myself because he doesn't realize all the prejudices and the stupidity that society has. I mean he'll get up and cuddle and lie on my chest and play and all of that and he could care less whether I had AIDS and I think that's the highlight of every day. Steve's in the process of moving to cut his financial expenses. I changed a lot of

ways of thinking. The monetary stuff is important anymore. I've had to go through bankruptcy and liquidate everything but I don't feel that that was a loss. I hated doing it and it was something that no one really likes to go through and it's a real emotional experience but it had to be done. I had no choice and I've gone through eating a lot of pride. On such a security disability they can get at to close to $600 a month depending on how much they have paid into it what the qualifications are. $600 a month does not go very far in Dallas, Texas when you are providing your own rent, your own utilities, your

own food. I don't live on $600 a month. I have accepted the disease as a part of me. It's something that I don't hate nor do I love. I just I know it's there and I know that I'm terminal and if there was a way of going and having it removed I would do it but there's not so I have to accept it and I just make the best of each day. I plan to see the fall. I have friends that when I was ill on the hospital and the nurses they said that you know that they hope that I got to see the spring. Well it's now the spring. I'm looking forward to the hot Dallas summer.